Is it just me, or has this week been pretty bipolar??? I feel like I just fell straight out of a Katy Perry Song! Just a few days ago it was so hot I was dying of heat in my dorm. Now its so cold I can’t feel my face! (Did ya catch the Hot ‘N Cold reference?? hehe) But for real, this Kansas weather is so dangerously close to the Nebraskan weather I am oh so use to: unexpected rise and falls in temperature. This whole week has just been up and down! First with the weather, then with homework, and even with things to do outside of school! One day I’m packed with homework and that’s the time everyone wants to do something! Then the next day I have no homework and there is NOTHING to do :\.
I just can’t wait for things to get into a steady groove!! These first two weeks are super shaky and I am just waiting for all of the dust to settle; for all of the schedules to become routine; for the days to just fall into place. Then the other day, when I was thinking about this need for routine, something odd kind of struck me. Now before I explain what crossed my mind I would like to elaborate upon a little fact about myself: I over think EVERYTHING! I find the deepest meaning in every little detail of life, from a feeling about school routine to a dirty shoe on the side of the road. Everything means something to me. So take what I’m about to say however you want. ANYWAY! SO I was thinking the other day about the whole routine spiel I was just talking about, and it hit me! That’s kind of how we, as Americans, generally prefer life: on a schedule; according to plan; on the right track. Why is that? Why are we so content with life being “ordinary”?
I once heard a quote from one of the best actor’s of all time, the late Heath Ledger. In playing the character The Joker in the second Batman movie, Batman: The Dark Night, The Joker is talking to Harvey Dent in a hospital bed and he says this: “Nobody panics when things go according to plan, even if the plans are horrifying.” This is sooo true! If it’s expected people don’t usually have a problem with it. It’s only in the times where something out of the ordinary happens that people lose their senses and panic. When in actuality the only things that are extraordinary are the things that are out of the ordinary! When we, as American citizens, as followers of Christ, settle for the ordinary then that’s what our lives will be like: ordinary; bland; plain. So why do we settle? Why do I want life to become simple? That’s boring :\.
So that’s my challenge to all of you, and to myself: accept the changes as opportunities to make something extraordinary. Because if we settle for less then we will never grow, we will never thrive, we will never truly live. Don’t be afraid to live! Don’t be afraid to embrace something you are afraid of. Don’t be afraid to take a leap of faith or to go on an adventure. Life is full of things to be afraid of, and if you let them scare you, then don’t expect to live out loud. So stop settling, stop blending in, start growing, and start speaking out; Be Mindful — Have no Fear…
So far this year of 2013 has already been a whirlwind. One month of the twelve is already coming to a close and it feels like I was just making new years resolutions yesterday. My mind is blown thinking about all the change that will come to be within this following year, its unbelievable.
Here’s the new that’s been in this girl’s life. Last week, two of my dearest friends moved half-way across the world, one to study at a film school in Scotland and the other to study ceramics in Wales. Needless to say, I have been stalking there Instas and facebooks ever since. (Sidenote–every picture that you take in Europe is automatically phenomenal.) I started a new job last week working with one-year old’s at a daycare program on campus which has been a blast. Even though these little guys are often nuts, their cuteness makes up for everything. God knew what he was doing when he decided to make little ones absolutely adorable and precious. Wedding planning is underway and not a day goes by that I cannot believe that this awaited chapter of my life is officially on it’s way. As exciting as figuring out some of those details can be (details that us gals tend to obsess over–the dress, the decor, etc.–hence why pinterest exists) I cannot express how stoked I am to get to fully share life with my best friend. However, even though the whole engaged scene is all about looking ahead, by golly we are determined to give this stage the attention it deserves by focusing on the here and now.
More change coming with 2013 includes being officially done with my college career by this time next year. Along with this exciting fact comes stress and worry about what in the world I’m supposed to do with myself once I get there. Here within the next couple of weeks I will be trying to narrow down what internship to tackle this summer, which I am praying will bring me some direction within the Behavioral Sciences realm as to what to go towards. I am so thankful to the Lord for providing me such amazing people as my professors who have been helping me ask the tough questions in order to pinpoint a job or career that align with my gifting and passions. I’d be a fool to expect the Lord to reveal all now, but want to make sure I’m being purposeful in asking Him to go before me and prepare a way.
In looking ahead, I am so excited to see the Lord at work through all the change and challenges in the coming year, whether that be in my education, internship opportunities, local ministries, or relationships. 2013….here we go!
HEY GUYS!! So yesterday I shared my feelings about the break, and, as promised, here is today’s blog on how I feel about the rest of the semester!!
So it’s been occurring to me lately that college is really stressful. Getting finalized, paying bills, it’s all kind of overwhelming. And that’s ok because I know it is all worth it. But why is it worth it? Is it worth it to, one day, be able to support your family and not have to struggle to pay the bills? Is it worth it to one day have a career that SHOULD make you happy? Or is it something else? I personally think that these are good reasons but there is more to it than this. There’s more to the stress and more the back breaking, time crunching, hair pulling, effort that goes into every little detail of our college kids’ lives. Yeah learning to grow up and living life is a part of this but is that what is most important? It’s not the money you make or the title you have. And the college experience or the fact that you are “getting away” shouldn’t be valid reasons to take your life and throw it in an emotional blender know as college preparation. Because this, honestly, sucks. Preparing for college and getting everything organized can be a huge pain in the butt. But the path you chose makes it worth it. Not the destination but the journey. Not the atmosphere but what you do with it. Everyday God gives us opportunities to change the life of people in many ways we never even think of. We just over look it all. And those opportunities, those solitary moments in time that fall upon us and appear as riddles, drama, problems are actually blessings from God. Beautiful things happen everyday out of the saddest, most hurtful things you could imagine. And God asks us to join Him in his walk in making those beautiful things happen.
SO this semester I will try to look at everything as an opportunity to make something beautiful: homework, friends, fights, relationships, anything I can think of. Things all the way from ordering your food at McDonald’s, to meeting a deadline (which I have been pretty bad at myself lately), and on down the list are all opportunities given to us to show how beautiful life can be. And to me, college is a way to make those opportunities happen now, and in the future.
I am really looking forward to this semester. I know I will not always succeed in all i set out to do but failing is a part of making life happen. So as long as I keep my chin high and my hopes higher I know everything will be ok. It’s time for me to stop focusing on what’s wrong, and to focus on what’s beautiful. Because in the end what’s wrong doesn’t really matter, and what’s beautiful will be what makes your life worth living.
HEY GUYS!!! So, first off, this break has been crazy! And since my computer has been incapacitated for some time now I have not been able to keep anyone updated. But now that this week everything was fixed and I am finally within the range of a successful Wi-Fi connection I can recap my break! So here goes!!!!
Let’s start with a list of the things I did this break:
3. Work more
4. Work even more
Just Kidding! BUT it sure felt like that was the case! Working 9 or 10 hour days at a daycare everyday takes its toll on a guy. This was not a break for me! I was more tired over break than I was ever during school. That made me miss MNU even more. This place is my home now, and going back to live with my family was weird. I mean readjusting is kinda hard. I missed the fellowship, the campus, the food, the professors, and even the homework! Call me crazy but everything about MNU feels like home now.
I mean I had fun over break, don’t get me wrong. It was good to see my family and the friends back home, going on endless coffee shop adventures and out eating out. I enjoyed the holiday season and the snow in Nebraska was fun while it lasted, but it’s not the same as it use to be. It was good to have a change of scenery coming to MNU the first time and I’m still not even close to being sick of it, but I have had enough of my hometown. MNU is the next step in my life and I am more than ready to keep on with this step and to stop looking back. I came and visited friends in Olathe over break! I couldn’t wait all 5 or 6 weeks, or however long it was (all I know is that it felt too long).
Overall it was a good break! I loved it even though I was busy working all the time! But it is good to be back at MNU. This is now my home and I love every part of it!
So HELLO to all of you Pioneers! I have missed you all!
And to all of you upcoming freshman next year: I hope you love this place as much as I do! You won’t want to leave once you call this place your home.
That’s a small recap of my break and tomorrow I will update on what I am looking forward to for the rest of the year so stay tuned!!
I know I already described the day of my engagement to all of you guys a little while back, but after Zach’s friend Morgan did such an amazing job filming our special day, I thought it’d only be right to share this with you all. (: Enjoy!
Chatting, sleeping, and belting song after song characterized the ten-hour car drive. The ten of us ladies had finally arrived. There we were, up in the mountains, staring at the Kenyon Cabin once again. This same time last year we had made the trip to the cabin for the first time and we were so excited to be able to come again. Katie Kenyon, a good friend of mine, invited us to a week’s stay at her family’s beautiful cabin in nothing less than beautiful Colorado. And this cabin is not located just anywhere in Colorado, but sits in the mountains right outside of Vail—the cream of the crop. Needless to say, we were ESTATIC.
The trip originated with a group of us that had all met working together at Youthfront a few summers ago, which is a Christian youth camp located near the Kansas City area. Ever since we have continued to stay a part of each other’s lives and the trip was eventually created as a way to all spend time together during our Christmas break. Friends were brought along as well and the week together was spent making new friendships just as much as it was spent deepening old ones. It was such a success that the cabin simply had to be revisited again.
You can imagine the sort of giddiness and slap-happiness that accrued as a result of the endless amounts of estrogen in house. The mornings were very slow in which some slept in, some read by the fire, and others made headway on coffee and breakfast. Once noon rolled around, most everyone was ready to conquer the day outside of the house and we would often venture into town and explore or decide on some sort of outdoor excursion. One afternoon we got some ice skates together and drove to a little frozen lake up in the mountains where we skated for hours in awe of the view. Another afternoon, after dressing up like abominable snowmen, we trekked out in the snow and found the absolute perfect sledding location. We flew down time and time again until some part of us was completely frozen and we retreated inside to thaw by the fire. On evenings when we just wanted to relax we would often play different card or board games or would pop in some kind of movie. One of my favorite days on the trip was spent with three of the other gals, including Kai my roommate who I brought along, in which we spent the day exploring Vail Village while a couple others went skiing on the mountain close by. We found a wonderful coffee shop where we talked for a while, went and looked through various art galleries, and eventually ate at an adorable German restaurant. Another highlight was of course all of us going to see Les Miserables together, in which there were many, many tears shed, and the many times following where we would listen to the soundtrack over and over again. Needless to say, there was quite an obsession.
However, above all else, my favorite part was simply catching up with one another and talking about things that matter to us. There is nothing that quite compares to spending such good quality time with some of the most wonderful ladies who never fail to challenge and impact me whenever we get together. I hope you all enjoy the pictures above and that each of you had an amazing Christmas break as well!