My junior year of high school, I came to S.C.O.U.T. (Students Checking Out University Turf) at MNU. This was my first college visit, and honestly, I had no intention of attending MNU. I just came because I wanted an excuse to check out what college life is like, and my best friend was going. Plus, my youth leader attended college at MNU and she really wanted me to check it out.
“This place is cool, but there’s no way I can afford it.”
That’s what was going through my mind all of my junior year. Through that college visit, I really came to like MNU and even thought I wanted to go there. It felt like an unattainable dream to me. Like, maybe I was supposed to be there, but there was no possible way it would work out.
The rest of my junior year and my senior year were spent going on college visits, trying to find a place that sparked my interest the way MNU does. (Spoiler alert: I didn’t find it.)
Fast forward to spring of my senior year, when all of my friends were enrolled in the college of their choice, while I was playing a sick game of “eenie-meenie-miney-mo” with a few schools that I could afford. Each time I thought I had reached a decision, I would soon find myself back where I started.
During this time, I had this (inaccurate) thought in my head that God has a specific plan for my life, which includes a specific college and career, and if I don’t get it right there’s no hope for me. I thought there was a specific road I had follow, and if I didn’t, I would mess everything up.
We’ve all heard the famous Bible verse, Jeremiah 29:11. Chances are it was on at least half of the graduation cards you got.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
While struggling with finding my “plan” that God has for me, He spoke to me through the verses that follow Jeremiah 29:11.
“Then you will call on Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:12-13
Maybe God’s plan for our lives isn’t about where we go to school, what we major in, or even what our careers end up being. Maybe His plan for our lives is to seek Him with all our hearts. I think God has a plan for all of us, and that plan is for us to grow into a deep relationship with Him, and through that, give glory to Him.
I’m not saying that God doesn’t have specific plans for some of us. I do believe that God calls certain people to walk down certain roads that lead to a specific college, major, or career. But, instead of stressing about if we’re on the path that God wants us to be on, we should make decisions that best glorify Him. We can’t go wrong in doing that.
So, in the midst of trying not to mess up God’s plan for my life, I realized that God’s plan for my life is to glorify Him in every decision that I make.
I went to S.C.O.U.T. again my senior year, still sure that I couldn’t afford MNU. The only reason I went was to hang out with some of my friends that I had met the previous year. To be honest, I didn’t even go to some of the events I was supposed to attend. (Sorry, MNU)
On that second visit, I felt peace. The kind of peace that can’t be ignored. This peace was from God. I knew that I needed to talk to admissions, look for more scholarships, and at least TRY to make MNU a possibility in my life.
After many late nights of praying, pros-and-cons lists, phone calls with my admissions counselor, and meetings with my parents…
I am a Pioneer.
The peace that I feel about this decision is my proof that this is where God wants me. For now, MNU is the road that God has me going on. There will undoubtedly be forks in the road and maybe even a few u-turns, but I believe that God will lead me. I don’t know if I’ll stick with my major and I don’t know exactly what I want to do with my life, but I do know one thing. I know that instead of trying so desperately to figure out God’s plan for my entire life, I should simply pray about it and make decisions that will bring glory to Him.
I believe that’s God’s plan for our lives.