The semester is winding down rather quickly. We made some new friendships, and ended some old ones. We surprised even ourselves with how well we did academically, or maybe we learned we should and will do a lot better than we did next semester. We ate a lot because college fifteen comes for the weak. We accepted eight hours of sleep five days a week is only a dream. We learned how to cope with how poor we felt every time we left the cashier’s office. A lot of things happened this semester. You learned a lot, well I know at least I did. And I’d like to share a little bit about that.
During welcome week my freshman year, Dr. Hayse spoke to our class and said something that has stuck with me since, he said, “Here at MNU you will be challenged to make your faith your own.” I can personally attest to how true that statement was. This semester has been a shedding and growing faith season for me.
Ever since I was a kid, my prayers were so robotic. I prayed what I should and what sounded good. I ignored confessing to God how unworthy I felt at times , or how I wrestled to believe he loved me. I didn’t confess to him the pain and distrust that I carried. I didn’t confront the resentment that had grown in my heart for others. Those were things I didn’t believe were in his intrest. But that’s not at all who JESUS reflected God to be. Jesus was a man who desired to know and see the inner parts of humanity be transformed. A transformation that required vulnerability.
This semester I have learned how to share my true feelings about the things I’ve been recently going through. In doing that I’ve gotten to exerience the grace and comfort of God work on my heart, and cultivate a deep intimacy between God and I.
Max Lucado (My role model from afar) brings it all together with this quote:
This truth about God has forever changed my perception on the concept of relationship not religion. Not only do I empty my heart out to God, but I also get to listen to Him responsed. I listen to his love reassure the fears in my mind that I am still his. I feel his mercy conquer the shame I once carried. His grace rescues me from bitterness and resentment. I’ve come to really understand the heart of God in these past few months.
Here are two songs that have been a lot of help in my journey of genuinely seeking God:
I’d love to hear some of your faith shedding and growing experiences, so feel free to leave a comment below.